ekstasis

blowing leaves or rain
lost between the sounds
that at times seem the same
a quest for love and peace
at best is colorless
dulled senses hung on apathy
at worst violence in shame
lashing out through pain

my divided self rests
between acts of greed
and tides of remorse
sowing seeds of ecstasy
sweating beads of chaos
clear images of myself
dancing through prisms
getting more and more lost

words fail to soothe me
after the scene pictures
that passion strains to hold
events that define me
crucifying icons of lies
thorns rip me bloody
clown tears on facepaint
can anyone hear my cries

how much time do I have
in this elusive dream of me
chasing beauty with narcissa
in reckless hope of breaking free
my soul awoke me this morning
whispering softly into my ear
go deeper - go deeper
for I will always be here
but you will soon disappear