ekstasis blowing leaves or rain lost between the sounds that at times seem the same a quest for love and peace at best is colorless dulled senses hung on apathy at worst violence in shame lashing out through pain my divided self rests between acts of greed and tides of remorse sowing seeds of ecstasy sweating beads of chaos clear images of myself dancing through prisms getting more and more lost words fail to soothe me after the scene pictures that passion strains to hold events that define me crucifying icons of lies thorns rip me bloody clown tears on facepaint can anyone hear my cries how much time do I have in this elusive dream of me chasing beauty with narcissa in reckless hope of breaking free my soul awoke me this morning whispering softly into my ear go deeper - go deeper for I will always be here but you will soon disappear