gigi

people turn upon me
reflect me as they reach
circling in worship
gifts for my eyes
seeing myself through theirs
desperately they love me
then accuse me of lies

where are you narcissa?
in sleep I wake and walk
tossed by dreams that frighten me
just wishing we could talk
banned by you I fell away
and got lost inside my pain
I look for you in bars
star-crossed I seem insane
cursing love and circumstance
never to get a second chance

my name is an echo!
- gigi cries out
I am beauty itself torn by doubt
do they love or consume me
or threaten my crown?
all these echoes lost admirers
keeping their distance with poetry
that my beauty inspires
kissing my own lips
will free me from my fate
of living through images
until death lies in wait

daffodils rise for you
in respect dying to reflect
the mirrors that bind you
most of the time I'm out of time
reaching out to you with words
where did I touch you
when you ran away that day
you punish me with silence

go away flanigan
just go away