goodbye leaving me with polite 'thank you's like tears dropping down upon parched soil left to dry and burn enough to keep me sane longing for your return late one night outside my window I saw you standing just beyond the shadows chasing ghosts inside your head where is this girl who is never here? then looking back - you disappeared now I watch you finding your way through crowded bars and streets with faceless strangers whose company you keep friends bait and beat me away from jealous rage and childish despair lost in clownish forgotten nights hoping to find you there you turn to me walking out the door you smile and wave as you've done before just familiar enough for me not to notice each time I wake to walk the day you are one step further away